A love-story of Tree, Leaf, Wind / Chuyện tình Cây, Lá và Gió
I am called Cây (tree) because I like to paint trees. In a long time, I often paint a small tree at the corner of my painting. I ever dated five girls when I was a student. But there was only girl I really love (this one was not one of five girls). I love her but I was not brave enough to make a love with her. She has not got a pretty face or beautiful fingers. Her body is not perfect as well. She is just a normal girl but she is very intelligent, playful and innocent. Specially, she seems to look fragile. I love her, really love her but I thought “this normal girl does not suit me” so, that why I did not make a love with her at that time. I was afraid that my love for her would be bad after dating. Moreover, I was afraid she would be hurt by rumours. I thought if she was mine, she would belong to me forever and I did not have to give up every thing for her. To me, she was just a normal friend. However, she was still beside me for 3 years and looked on me dating another girls. I knew I made her cry a lots during that time. She wanted to be a good actress but I was a bad severe director. When I was kissing my second girlfriend, she suddenly appeared, she was confused “ please, feel free!”- she said before running away. The next day, her eyes seemed to be swelled. I thought she must have cried so much before. I did not understand why she cried and tried to cheer her up all that day. When the class was finished and all of students were out, she was still there and cried by herself. She did not know that I saw her crying for 1 hour when I came back the class to take something forgotten. My fourth girlfriend did not like her. Once, they got a quarrel with each other. I knew definitely that it was not her fault, it was my girlfriend fault but I still gave support to my darling so I scolded her. She looked at me with a really shock. I did not care about that and then left with my girlfriend. The next day, she still talked to me as usual, I was sure that her heart had been hurt so much and so did mine but I guessed she would never do know about this. When I and my fifth girlfriend broke up, I dated her. After a few dating days, I said I had something to talk with her and she replied to me she had as well. I told her about the reason made us broke up and then she also let me know she began meeting another guy. I knew him. He was following her for a long time, he was a kind, good-looking and enthusiastic man. All students in my school knew clearly about the love he gave her. My throat seemed to be stuck when she said that but I could not let her know how hurt my heart was. I just smiled and congratulated her. After that I came back home. She never did know my heart was hurt so much that I could not stand steady on my legs. My thorax seemed to be burdened by a big rock. I could not breathe, I wanted to shout but I could not. Some tear-drops fell down, I began crying. I was not sure about how much times she cried because of me and how much times I did not understand her felling. So now I was punished. After graduation, I kept reading a message which was sent on a day after that day: “ Leaf left tree because wind had blown it away or because tree had not held it back”
When I was student, I would like to collect some falling leaves. Why? I thought that a falling leaf was a brave leaf because it lived and depened on tree for many years but it was still able to go away. During this time, I always wanted to be side by side with a guy. He was not my boyfriend, we were just general friends of each other but he was very special with me. When he had the first girlfriend. I learnt a feeling that I thought I would never had before – it was envy. That bad feeling could not describe by any words. I was in misery deeply. Two months later, they broke up. I was happy but he loved promptly another girl again. I loved him and I knew surely that he also loved me but why he did like that? why he was not a person who started first? My heart was hurt so much again whenever he had a new one. I began to think that there was only my unilateral love but if he did not love me, why he treated me well like this. It was very difficult to love a person. I knew what he wanted even I knew clearly his hobby but he never did understand what I thought. I did not know why I also could not opend my heart first. I also could not let him know my love for him. Except for that things, I still wanted to be beside him, care about him, looked after him and loved him. I wanted to sent message to him each night and looked forward to seeing his reply. I was sure that he would spend time for me however busy he was so I hoped he would love me someday. 3 years went by difficutly, sometime I thought of giving up. Sometime, I asked myself if I should wait for him. Day by day, I lived in deeply misery. Until the graduated year, there was a man, who was younger than me, publicly loved me. Each day, he tried to let me know his love and he did much things made me surprise. He seemed to be a wind that wanted to take a leaf away from tree. At first, I felt a bit uncomfortable with him and then, gradually, I took a small place in my heart for him. Finally, I realised that wind could bring me happiness, blow me to a greater land…therefore, I decided to leave Tree but Tree did not say anything at that time.
“ Leaf left tree because wind had blown it away or because tree had not held it back”
I love a girl who named Lá (leaf). Because she depends too much on her tree so I have to become a strong wind that can whirl this leaf along. I was a new comer in that university. I knew her about a month later. When we was playing football, I saw a small girl who always watched the leader and me. During this time, she always sat on audience’s chair by herself or with her friends in order to look at the leader. When he talked to another, I noticed the envy in her eyes but when he took a look back her, I realised the smile in her eyes. Looking at her became one of my hobbies like she loved to look at her sweetie. One day, she was not there, I felt void as if lacking of something. I could not explain how my feeling was. I felt sad. On that day, the leader was not there as well. I went to their class and saw he was scolding her. I noticed her eyes seemed to want to cry as soon as he left. The next day, I saw her sitting there again as before and kept on looking at him playing football. I went by her and smiled. I wrote a short message and decided to give it to her. She was surprised a bit at first and then she received it with a smile. The day later, she replied to me. “ leaf’s heart was so heavy that wind could not take it away” “ Not because leaf’s heart was too heavy, it was because the leaf did not want to go away from tree”- I replied. Gradually, she accepted my presents as well as my messages. Although I knew who she loved was not me, within 4 months, I still let her know my love not less than 20 times. Each time like that, she ignored at all. I thought that I had to do everything to have her love so I never gave up. I could not exactly remember how much times I said I loved her. Although she always ignored me, I still kept my intention. I hoped that she would be my girlfriend in the nearest day. One day, I phoned her but she replied nothing. I asked “ what’s wrong with you? Why do not you say anything?”- “ I got a headache” she answered. “what?” I did not believe in my ears. “ I got a headache” she repeated more loudly. I put the phone down and hurriedly took a taxi to go to her house. When she appeared I hug her immediately. Since that day… we were a couple.
“ So leaf left tree because wind had blown it away or because tree had not held it back…?”
He stormed up the stairs with fists clenched, unsure what or whom to be angry with. Not even sure why he was angry to begin with. After all, he was the one that broached the subject. He was the one that somewhere inside felt some deep need to share his darkest secrets with her. And so he had told her something that only two other people knew about himself and regretted it immediately. There was a mixture of confusion, disgust and genuine sadness in her eyes that sent him storming off. He went down into the basement to think, pacing back and forth. His mind was racing at the something she had said before. “What’s a girl gotta do to get kissed around here?”. Rolling the words in his mind like a small boat on a stormy sea. Was that what he was most angry about? That she had put that out there, like it was something he could act on? Was it his own stupidity? What would he do? He could just forget it, remember his commitments and try to pretend that she had never said it. He could call her on it. He could march right up those stairs and make her regret ever having said it. Or he could do nothing, go about his business, remind himself that they were great friends and nothing more, but then he would always wonder. What if? Minutes passed like days in his mind. He could suddenly see clearer the dust covering the tops of boxes in the warehouse. Little streams of light peeked in through the cracks in the back door, dust particles dancing back and forth in the small beams. He could smell the acrid scent of chemicals filling his nostrils. Even his sense of touch was heightened, his hearing finely tuned, his whole body humming like a machine. He made his way up the stairs, knowing what he was going to do. Even as he climbed the stairs his legs were carrying him faster than he ever intended. She was standing there at the top of the stairs, her eyes widening. He could see fear and confusion in her eyes, and perhaps a small part of longing. He spanned the distance between them quickly, his arms reaching for her. He took her face in his hands reaching for her and drawing her to him at the same time. Bodies met in a rush. And then. His lips were on hers. Her body tensed in shock and surprise but surprise gave way quickly as she kissed him back. Her mouth opened to his as thier tongues danced back and forth, heat rising between them. His hands were everywhere at once, hers holding him tight to her. He passionately cupped her breast and then thought better of it, not wanting to ruin the moment. They kissed for an eternity, like nothing else in the world mattered. And then they stood there holding eachother, not sure what to say, not sure anything needed to be said.
- I do hope that is how guys would react during their first kiss <3